Finding Peace Through Prayer: Seeking a Better Life

February 24, 2025 loveli7659Leave a comment

This prayer is for the person who knows more than what they think they know:

Father bless him or her with the right job so that she doesn’t have to depend on their children’s father or family to help with any financial burden. Father if it is meant to be let whoever is supposed to be in his or her life be there and remove anyone that is not supposed to be in their life give him or her the patience to deal with everyday life and the strength to deal with whatever confusion or burdens that may come give peace joy hope faith and understanding. Father open his or her eyes to see which way you want them to go lead, guide, and direct them in any situation about their life their children’s lives, and their family lives Father protect him or her while they are driving working at home at school wherever it is that they’re doing daily so that they may know you are with them every step of the way. Dispatch your angels around him or her so that they may feel safe and loved, father whoever it is that doesn’t have their physical family member present please wrap your arms around him or her and let them know that you are with them or that they are never alone. Father, whoever it may be that feels alone, may feel shut out, left back, or even forgotten. Father bring them to the forefront so that they may know that you are with them in everything that happens in their life is for a reason. Father show up and show out in whatever way you can that no matter what is going on in his or her life they may know to call on you to restore everything that has been lost restore all the broken pieces mend those things sin heal their way and let them know that you always see everything you sit high and you look low and nothing is too big or too small for you and Jesus mean I pray for a good job for a good car for a stable bank account for strength in the time of trouble and take care of their home and Jesus name amen

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Transform Your Mind: Trusting God Amidst Challenges

February 20, 2025February 20, 2025 loveli7659Leave a comment

Cast down negative thoughts, cast down things not of God, what did God say about you. Don’t get tired of waiting, it doesn’t mean it won’t happen have faith and trust in the Lord. Be anxious for nothing but pray in everything change how you see yourself change your vision, change how you see your bank account, you will see it in your mind first.

Don’t water yourself down to make others feel comfortable don’t change a thing about who you are be who you are unapologetically be bold strong and courageous make sure that you are fully grounded in the word of God so that you don’t allow any outside influences to make any changes negatively impact your life or your future.

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Speak Louder

March 26, 2023March 26, 2023 loveli76592 Comments

Im sorry I couldn’t hear you over my negative thoughts

I couldn’t listen to you over my own negativity that has been running through my mind like a mouse on a wheel

Do you think the things you said cut me deep when the cuts I had are still fresh. the words you speak only confirm what I have been feeling

Deep in my mind I often ran to that little girl who was pleasant but always cried out for help she would act up try to be a clown and try to be down so sometimes she comes out in other ways

you think what you did hurts me when I have been trying to silence the voices in my mind

SPEAK LOUDER let you opinion soar don’t shut down now I need more pile it all on me I can handle it because here’s the thing what you don’t see is me crying about it or pouting

O yes Im shouting now because I want you to ((( SPEAK LOUDER))))) make it known that you want to be free cuz I’m going to tell you that I’ve been there and done that and this isn’t my first trip

you think your words hurt when the actions have always been different and then expect a change from me, no please go be free cuz mentally I have been trapped and waiting to get out

SPEAK LOUDER didn’t you hear me the first time when I said its ok no need to explain I can see the pain when you walk away this time keep the same energy you gave me I am going to be free trust this is not over but it’s ok my thoughts will soon be dimmer and I will see clearer precisely who and what this problem is and then… at the point it will be… who knows… easier to speak

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Move Forward…

March 26, 2023 loveli7659Leave a comment

Its ok to have high expectations for someone when you are dating and sometimes we set the bar too high because of past traumas and other situations we come across in our lives when it comes down to it. we need to make sure we are living out exactly what we expect from others too often, we treat situations differently meaning we don’t always allow people to treat us the way we deserve in turn having us set ourselves up for disappointment.

when you allow someone to treat you how you think they should and how you think that allows you to have anyone inside of you and takes you off your focus and your goal. when you allow anyone to have access to you and drop their insecurities and their thoughts and feelings on how it should play out for you, then you lose yourself in their dreams and expectations for you instead of what you set out for yourself.

Dont allow everyone to have access to you, don’t rush to date someone who doesn’t see your worth work hard for yourself to gain what you need to before you allow someone to come in and dictate your life. Stay strong demand respect and allow others to catch up to you. Never drop what you are doing to help someone else follow their dreams never put too much of yourself into anyone else that you lose your identity.

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Deeper than Depression

March 8, 2022 loveli7659Leave a comment

I have to sometimes find ways to channel my depression like truly as a mother your not aloud to be sad or have break downs you have to figure out which way to handle certain things that can cause a trigger in your life like a song, smell, location, or even person. you cant sit in front of your child and cry and so you decide to find a quiet place in the house away from the noise and just cry or either scream or pray but u decided once you get it out your system that there is not turning back that it has been taking care of. but what if it hasnt and just like a band aid covering an wound you decide to pick at the scab until it bleeds and it has to be treated again you decide the first way you handled the issue didnt work so you try another method calling a friend now this friend you calll u dont really know what they got going on in their life but you just know they answer and then you break down all of your emotions and tirggers of what is causing you to sink into depression and you think there that it they have listened gave feedback and i got it out my system so you think you left the conversation satisfied but this feeling just wont go away so now what do you decide to do to ease the pain and the emotions your feeling look at funny videos or shows to take your mind off spend some time with your kids to use as a distraction to get out of your own head and still no progress that feeling you have deepens to the point where its like although you a present physically mentally you are not there its one thought after the next and you think of the methods you used before that didnt work so then you go to the liquor store and get yourself a beverage to just take the edge off and numb the pain your feeling nd thoughts your having but then you notice your almost done that drink and decide to get another and another and one thing leads to the next and now your drunk and your mind is racing and at the same time not thinkng striaght you decide to comfront your demons but in a way where not your creating a bigger problem than before and your fighting yourself mentally because you tried to talk to a friend that didnt work, you tried to have time to yourself and that didnt work so now your drunk and acting out what your feeling to yourself or someone close to you trying to find out why you were sad in the first place what caused you to go so far that you had to keep drinking to subside the emotions how is this even helping you get better and after all of that you still have the problem so do i you really come up with a full blown solution to help with depression you just learn to accept it and pray to God day by day that it will get better you dont blame others for not understanding you or blame yourself for not understanding you do research read the bible and pray and talk to a professional to see how you can manage day to day with mental illness i hope that this help you see that you are not alone that it is a fight and you will get through keep pushing yourself and dont give up

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Victoria

September 25, 2019 loveli7659Leave a comment

Shes built ford tough. Just ask her about the world that should tell you enough, she has autism and it speaks volumes, but from time to time it not so easily noticed. She will talk to you about her day, in the midst of it she will ask you questions about different thing. Now that I am older, I realize that my sister was not born the same way as me. But, growing up with someone who has autism you deal with alot. There were times where people would stare at my sister and we would have to explain why she was looking at her hand, or rocking back and forth. Some family members were afraid of her, because they didnt understand. Alot of family was ashamed of her. Some family Members went on to become nurses and Residential aids for people like my sister. It all depends on how you take the experience, and what you learn from it. She is different indeed, but grandma didnt raise her differently. My grandma raised her to cook, clean, shop, etc. whatever she needed to learn to be independent. My sister Victoria is one of a kind and always will be I love her for being different, she isnt afraid to express herself. Sometimes when she is overwhelm she shut down, but she tells me what she wants and needs. She loves music, any song playing on the radio she knows it. She loves to go shopping, rather its for food or clothes. When she doesnt want to do something, sometimes she will hurt herself or just get aggressive. Over all it was difficult to grow up with but now I am older it help me appreciation being different and learning about who she is . She knows who her family is, she knows my grandparents died but she deals with it in her own way.