My life is what I have made it! Come on this journey with me and explore some of the thoughts about things that has happened in my past, present, and see whats to come of it all!
.” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!”
—Philippians 4:13
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I truly feel like sometimes I ain’t good enough for certain family members like I was never at the level that they wanted me to be
No matter how much I helped
No matter how much I listen
No matter how much I encourage
And still I’m expected to show respect to someone who views me as an enemy instead of family
It causes damage mentally
Causes frustration
Why be around me if you don’t like me
It’s been feeling like I’m being used
But it’s your opinion that matters most
Yet I get mistreated and only help from you
If it benefits you
I don’t get help from you unless you want something in return
If I complain then I’m wrong
But why can’t I tell you how you wronged me
It’s sad, upsetting, and frustrating
How do you instill things in your children that will help them grow and learn?
How do you get your children to understand how to be obedient and listen without overwhelming yourself?
I don’t want to keep using the same methods that didn’t get me anywhere with my older son with my younger children, so I tried to talk more and be more patient versus how I was with my older son and just discipline him every chance I got..
As I get older and my children grow older, it seems like talking to them at times feels like a lot like nobody is comprehending or understanding what it is that I’m trying to instill in them or teach them.
I grew up with several different ways of being disciplined and the ways that I chose to utilize what I was taught was not always good with my oldest child so I’m trying to be different with my other children…
What are some ways that you feel you can teach your children how to listen and understand what you’re teaching them without huge confusion or confrontation??
I genuinely would like an answer as to how you parent your children and what were the results of your parenting techniques that you use on your children?
I was riding today headed to church and saw a clear path
I thought of the days we would speak about what I wanted to do when I grew up
I thought about the drives to the city and listening to klove while I heard you murmur the Lord’s prayer for safety
I remember fastening my seatbelt and praying in my head for traveling mercies
I still do that today and when Im on the road I look in the sky because I know your up there
When the world seems loud the sky looks at peace
And I wish I could have cherish those moments once more but I’ll forever have those memories
Of the nice car rides
Of the prayers
Of the times we shared
May your soul be at peace 🕊️
there was a point and time where i was afraid to be alone, I was afraid to deal with me and so to avoid it, I would surround myself with what I called friends, I would try to drink my problems away or even deal with a no good man to feel satisfied… but it never helped because anytime God would have me sit with myself and my thoughts i dealt with fear, anger, sadness, and bitterness. I often found myself lying to me telling me I was good and that the mask i had on was good enough. it wasnt. the veil had become lifted and those emotions and feelings had come to surface. I couldnt hide it anymore, so I made a fool of myself I thought I could keep pretending and it gotten to the point where everyone saw me for who i was sad,bitter, angry, and an emotional rollercoaster. I couldnt hide behind anyone, I couldnt fake it, so I began to play the victim knowing i was the cause of my own disater and fate.
You tricked me into falling for you and when you got done, you discarded me like I was tissue after blowing your false desires and dreams on me. Making me believe we were one thing when it was really something else. You didn’t take your time with me you didn’t treat me like a fragile doll or antique you sped up this reality to make me think I had a chance and fed me breadcrumbs.. having me chase after you, get out of character and fall under your lies. Once I called you out on the disrespect you turn and blame me…
Go on a walk today and share a photo of something that catches your eye.
Today I was walking and saw the sun setting
It was such a peaceful view especially with the storm coming right after. I find such joy in the simple beautiful things 🤩
Why is it that when you want things done a certain way it doesn’t happen like that why is it that when somebody else wants things done a certain way we can go out of our way sometimes to do with someone else wants but don’t give the same energy to ourselves it’s not easy to even do things for others but we will make sure we get it done.
We don’t give ourselves the same time in the same energy that we do others and sometimes it makes us feel good when we go out of our way for other people but we need to begin to make ourselves feel good and go out of our way for ourselves I think that one of the things that help is helped me over the years begin to do things for myself more often than usual it should just stop and take in what’s going on around me
I’m learning that it seems to be easier to go out of our way for others than it is ourselves and in order for me personally to make time for me I decide that I’m going to turn my phone off play my music and justice enjoy peace and quiet if I don’t want to hear any music
I’m realizing that it’s easier said than done but it’s something that has to be consistent and it’s something that has to happen because if it doesn’t happen then I’m left to wonder why I’m going through so much confusion and why I feel overwhelmed and why I feel like I’m not getting anywhere so when it comes to these things and when I feel this way I have to shut the world out because I cannot continue to do for others and pour into others if I can’t pour into myself the same way I think you should give it a try it definitely makes the difference
why is when we think we know it all and too prideful to ask for help.
we think we don’t need help or even want help
somethings its ok to ask for a hand
studies show it does take a village to get things done
a good support system of family and friends etc
I used to not want to ask for help with nothing and realize being in survival mode is no joke
you got to get out of that mind set and take a chance on yourself and make a diffference by seeking the help you need for important things
how can you do better if you don’t change otherwise, you will be stuck in the same cycle and get nowhere.
take a chance on yourself
I thought that I had it all together until I got hit with a stomach bug. it hit me out of no where
I feel like a bomb hit me and knocked me completely down. Listen when your body says rest. No need to try to do more than you can …
Has anyone experienced these viruses before. It’s not like when we were kids…. Amen I mean seriously I was not able to do anything and that’s what hurt the most …
Thank God I’m good now
I begin to find myself through the escaping pen
all I wanted was freedom and didn’t know where to start or where it would end
I decided to escape through the keyboard and digital paper to write a means to my end
and once I started typing, I didn’t know where my lines would end
so I just made sure to express myself the way I truly wanted because if you really knew me, then you wouldn’t want to hear about it
hear about my day to day or even the one that got away,
Now, I’m glad you decided to tune in and see what journey I choose to write about with my digital pen. I like it this way because it has the trail that will stay; even a physical copy is something that will fade away
I want to see how far it will go
I want to see where it will land
I want to see how much I can do
I wasn’t sure where I would land
I didn’t know where to start
I was always set apart from others and writing was my escape plan
Thanks to my sisters, I can start again
and so
and soo
and soooo
I begin again……
Paperless Tales 