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Finding Peace Through Prayer: Seeking a Better Life

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This prayer is for the person who knows more than what they think they know:

Father bless him or her with the right job so that she doesn’t have to depend on their children’s father or family to help with any financial burden. Father if it is meant to be let whoever is supposed to be in his or her life be there and remove anyone that is not supposed to be in their life give him or her the patience to deal with everyday life and the strength to deal with whatever confusion or burdens that may come give peace joy hope faith and understanding. Father open his or her eyes to see which way you want them to go lead, guide, and direct them in any situation about their life their children’s lives, and their family lives Father protect him or her while they are driving working at home at school wherever it is that they’re doing daily so that they may know you are with them every step of the way. Dispatch your angels around him or her so that they may feel safe and loved, father whoever it is that doesn’t have their physical family member present please wrap your arms around him or her and let them know that you are with them or that they are never alone. Father, whoever it may be that feels alone, may feel shut out, left back, or even forgotten. Father bring them to the forefront so that they may know that you are with them in everything that happens in their life is for a reason. Father show up and show out in whatever way you can that no matter what is going on in his or her life they may know to call on you to restore everything that has been lost restore all the broken pieces mend those things sin heal their way and let them know that you always see everything you sit high and you look low and nothing is too big or too small for you and Jesus mean I pray for a good job for a good car for a stable bank account for strength in the time of trouble and take care of their home and Jesus name amen

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The Challenge of Self-Care: Why We Struggle

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riddle me this:

why is it so hard sometimes to set boundaries and maybe even take the time for yourself? Is it that we get so caught up in reality and during things of “the norm”? What does a typical day look like for you? Have you ever considered just relaxing for once?

These are some of the things I often ponder because I find it hard to understand myself. I sometimes feel like I am one of those people who would just keep going and going and going and then when I do take the time to relax I feel bad, I feel like I don’t deserve to sit down for a few moments and have time to myself because there’s always stuff that needs to be done.

Let’s start with something as simple as a to-do list, But do you even think that’s simple? it’s really not, it requires a lot of thinking a lot of using your mind to organize your thoughts, and then putting it on a piece of paper that in itself is not even easy.

Maybe what I can do is just start with something as simple as sitting down for a few minutes do you think that is easy? Sometimes I think it’s so hard to do something as simple as relaxation but, as we get older, we have to learn how to take that time and just shut out the world to get the peace of mind that we need for ourselves whether it’s going for a walk, going to the library or even just laying down relaxing.

here are a few simple steps that have worked for me even now:

  1. Pray
  2. Write a to-do list
  3. put my phone on Do not disturb
  4. Cook my favorite meal
  5. Go for a walk
  6. just sit down and breath
  7. watch a good tv show

In the comments below tell me some of the things that you feel would be a great addition to this list as well as whats some things that have worked for you in your everyday life thank you for taking the time to read today and I hope that we all can learn something peace out.

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Blessing My Mother: A Soulful Prayer for Well-Being

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Father, please bless my mother with her finances and help her stop going from pillar to post and find the home she dreams of and needs. Please place her around people, places, and things to help assist her in every area of her life and help get the things she needs to get God please remove any negative feelings or emotions out of her mind and remove sadness and loneliness from her. Please release the disease that she fights daily that she doesn’t talk about such as mentally, physically, or emotionally.

I Bind and plead the blood of Jesus over there things causing her to be held back, especially in the mind. Release my mother and I put away anything that will cause a setback. I ask that you help her come back be better than before. She will rise up, she will win, she will have her hearts desires. she is healthy, she is free, she is finally free and financially stable. Father, I ask you to help her see who she is in you, and utilize the positive and not the negative. when she thinks about the pasty, let it be the good things or the reason why she is the way she is to make her stronger! in Jesus name amen

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Transform Your Mind: Trusting God Amidst Challenges

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Cast down negative thoughts, cast down things not of God, what did God say about you. Don’t get tired of waiting, it doesn’t mean it won’t happen have faith and trust in the Lord. Be anxious for nothing but pray in everything change how you see yourself change your vision, change how you see your bank account, you will see it in your mind first.

Don’t water yourself down to make others feel comfortable don’t change a thing about who you are be who you are unapologetically be bold strong and courageous make sure that you are fully grounded in the word of God so that you don’t allow any outside influences to make any changes negatively impact your life or your future.

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Speak Louder

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Im sorry I couldn’t hear you over my negative thoughts

I couldn’t listen to you over my own negativity that has been running through my mind like a mouse on a wheel

Do you think the things you said cut me deep when the cuts I had are still fresh. the words you speak only confirm what I have been feeling

Deep in my mind I often ran to that little girl who was pleasant but always cried out for help she would act up try to be a clown and try to be down so sometimes she comes out in other ways

you think what you did hurts me when I have been trying to silence the voices in my mind

SPEAK LOUDER let you opinion soar don’t shut down now I need more pile it all on me I can handle it because here’s the thing what you don’t see is me crying about it or pouting

O yes Im shouting now because I want you to ((( SPEAK LOUDER))))) make it known that you want to be free cuz I’m going to tell you that I’ve been there and done that and this isn’t my first trip

you think your words hurt when the actions have always been different and then expect a change from me, no please go be free cuz mentally I have been trapped and waiting to get out

SPEAK LOUDER didn’t you hear me the first time when I said its ok no need to explain I can see the pain when you walk away this time keep the same energy you gave me I am going to be free trust this is not over but it’s ok my thoughts will soon be dimmer and I will see clearer precisely who and what this problem is and then… at the point it will be… who knows… easier to speak

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Move Forward…

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Its ok to have high expectations for someone when you are dating and sometimes we set the bar too high because of past traumas and other situations we come across in our lives when it comes down to it. we need to make sure we are living out exactly what we expect from others too often, we treat situations differently meaning we don’t always allow people to treat us the way we deserve in turn having us set ourselves up for disappointment.

when you allow someone to treat you how you think they should and how you think that allows you to have anyone inside of you and takes you off your focus and your goal. when you allow anyone to have access to you and drop their insecurities and their thoughts and feelings on how it should play out for you, then you lose yourself in their dreams and expectations for you instead of what you set out for yourself.

Dont allow everyone to have access to you, don’t rush to date someone who doesn’t see your worth work hard for yourself to gain what you need to before you allow someone to come in and dictate your life. Stay strong demand respect and allow others to catch up to you. Never drop what you are doing to help someone else follow their dreams never put too much of yourself into anyone else that you lose your identity.

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Gratitude

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I’ve shown enough gratitude to others even more than they deserved it. I believe that is where the people pleaser in me came from. Making sure to use my manner and truly help others feel good about themselves. Sometimes it was a good thing and helped me feel good, other times it was not a good feeling.

Showing others gratitude and happiness is something that doesn’t come easy but taking the time to really help put a smile on other’s faces can end up being good for everyone. There does come a point and time when you want to do what’s best for you, even if it means not always going out of your way for others.

I have extended myself to more people than a little bit and find at this point in my life it is better to set boundaries and not work so hard to make others happy. Time to make me happy, time to do what’s best for me, and in the meantime, still smile and let others see my joy and even help someone else feel happiness but no longer at the point of making myself miserable.

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My last Goodbye….
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My last Goodbye….

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I shed a tear because I have no more tears left to cry

It’s like I’ve become numb to all of the foolishness and the lies

Too much on my mind, my thoughts running wild over the lies

but it’s not all on you, it’s me too! I was not supportive enough

I didn’t make you feel safe and secure, so you ran to something new

You ran to something new or maybe even comforting.

How am I supposed to believe that is all not happening,

As I sit and watch it unfold, I pray to God that you have exactly what you are looking for

Don’t worry, I’ll be fine when its all said it done it was a long journey

lots of pain, lots of joy, lots of laughter but no matter where we stand today

You are still someone who was empathizing with my pain

you look me in my face and told a lie and this one is something I can’t come back from

so as I am packing my bags and walking out ill be sure to leave a note to list the reasons why

I can’t keep masking the pain I feel inside

smiling in your face knowing you just came from a stranger’s place

I can’t speak to you the same, call me crazy but this is a different kind of escape this time around

no need to worry God is going to hold you down and when you come out of that lost place you are in

just remember you still have a friend.

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Deeper than Depression

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I have to sometimes find ways to channel my depression like truly as a mother your not aloud to be sad or have break downs you have to figure out which way to handle certain things that can cause a trigger in your life like a song, smell, location, or even person. you cant sit in front of your child and cry and so you decide to find a quiet place in the house away from the noise and just cry or either scream or pray but u decided once you get it out your system that there is not turning back that it has been taking care of. but what if it hasnt and just like a band aid covering an wound you decide to pick at the scab until it bleeds and it has to be treated again you decide the first way you handled the issue didnt work so you try another method calling a friend now this friend you calll u dont really know what they got going on in their life but you just know they answer and then you break down all of your emotions and tirggers of what is causing you to sink into depression and you think there that it they have listened gave feedback and i got it out my system so you think you left the conversation satisfied but this feeling just wont go away so now what do you decide to do to ease the pain and the emotions your feeling look at funny videos or shows to take your mind off spend some time with your kids to use as a distraction to get out of your own head and still no progress that feeling you have deepens to the point where its like although you a present physically mentally you are not there its one thought after the next and you think of the methods you used before that didnt work so then you go to the liquor store and get yourself a beverage to just take the edge off and numb the pain your feeling nd thoughts your having but then you notice your almost done that drink and decide to get another and another and one thing leads to the next and now your drunk and your mind is racing and at the same time not thinkng striaght you decide to comfront your demons but in a way where not your creating a bigger problem than before and your fighting yourself mentally because you tried to talk to a friend that didnt work, you tried to have time to yourself and that didnt work so now your drunk and acting out what your feeling to yourself or someone close to you trying to find out why you were sad in the first place what caused you to go so far that you had to keep drinking to subside the emotions how is this even helping you get better and after all of that you still have the problem so do i you really come up with a full blown solution to help with depression you just learn to accept it and pray to God day by day that it will get better you dont blame others for not understanding you or blame yourself for not understanding you do research read the bible and pray and talk to a professional to see how you can manage day to day with mental illness i hope that this help you see that you are not alone that it is a fight and you will get through keep pushing yourself and dont give up

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I did not know

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I did not know the whole time it was me that had the problem. I am the one who chooses to make it seem like you have the issues that everything that happened to me, was your fault. You are the one to blame for the abuse, the one to blame for the rape, the one to blame for all of the things I did during that time. Why did you leave, why did you have to die, I think if you were alive I would have not did half of the things I did. I was looking for a father and you were no where to be found. Only God held my hand but I still turned away from him. Why did I punish myself for all of the things that happend to me. Did I put myself in that position to get hurt, used and abused. I did not know it was all my fault for blaming others for the stupid decisions. Now here I am a decade later and Yet I am still, I am still naive to all of the foolish ways that I have in me. Can I ignore myself….. Can I run from myself…. Im so confused…. I didnt know that I was going to have it this way…. and yet… and yet…. Im still here