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SOMETHING TO CONSIDER


Why is it that when you want things done a certain way it doesn’t happen like that why is it that when somebody else wants things done a certain way we can go out of our way sometimes to do with someone else wants but don’t give the same energy to ourselves it’s not easy to even do things for others but we will make sure we get it done.

We don’t give ourselves the same time in the same energy that we do others and sometimes it makes us feel good when we go out of our way for other people but we need to begin to make ourselves feel good and go out of our way for ourselves I think that one of the things that help is helped me over the years begin to do things for myself more often than usual it should just stop and take in what’s going on around me

I’m learning that it seems to be easier to go out of our way for others than it is ourselves and in order for me personally to make time for me I decide that I’m going to turn my phone off play my music and justice enjoy peace and quiet if I don’t want to hear any music

I’m realizing that it’s easier said than done but it’s something that has to be consistent and it’s something that has to happen because if it doesn’t happen then I’m left to wonder why I’m going through so much confusion and why I feel overwhelmed and why I feel like I’m not getting anywhere so when it comes to these things and when I feel this way I have to shut the world out because I cannot continue to do for others and pour into others if I can’t pour into myself the same way I think you should give it a try it definitely makes the difference

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Finding Peace Through Prayer: Seeking a Better Life


This prayer is for the person who knows more than what they think they know:

Father bless him or her with the right job so that she doesn’t have to depend on their children’s father or family to help with any financial burden. Father if it is meant to be let whoever is supposed to be in his or her life be there and remove anyone that is not supposed to be in their life give him or her the patience to deal with everyday life and the strength to deal with whatever confusion or burdens that may come give peace joy hope faith and understanding. Father open his or her eyes to see which way you want them to go lead, guide, and direct them in any situation about their life their children’s lives, and their family lives Father protect him or her while they are driving working at home at school wherever it is that they’re doing daily so that they may know you are with them every step of the way. Dispatch your angels around him or her so that they may feel safe and loved, father whoever it is that doesn’t have their physical family member present please wrap your arms around him or her and let them know that you are with them or that they are never alone. Father, whoever it may be that feels alone, may feel shut out, left back, or even forgotten. Father bring them to the forefront so that they may know that you are with them in everything that happens in their life is for a reason. Father show up and show out in whatever way you can that no matter what is going on in his or her life they may know to call on you to restore everything that has been lost restore all the broken pieces mend those things sin heal their way and let them know that you always see everything you sit high and you look low and nothing is too big or too small for you and Jesus mean I pray for a good job for a good car for a stable bank account for strength in the time of trouble and take care of their home and Jesus name amen

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The Challenge of Self-Care: Why We Struggle


riddle me this:

why is it so hard sometimes to set boundaries and maybe even take the time for yourself? Is it that we get so caught up in reality and during things of “the norm”? What does a typical day look like for you? Have you ever considered just relaxing for once?

These are some of the things I often ponder because I find it hard to understand myself. I sometimes feel like I am one of those people who would just keep going and going and going and then when I do take the time to relax I feel bad, I feel like I don’t deserve to sit down for a few moments and have time to myself because there’s always stuff that needs to be done.

Let’s start with something as simple as a to-do list, But do you even think that’s simple? it’s really not, it requires a lot of thinking a lot of using your mind to organize your thoughts, and then putting it on a piece of paper that in itself is not even easy.

Maybe what I can do is just start with something as simple as sitting down for a few minutes do you think that is easy? Sometimes I think it’s so hard to do something as simple as relaxation but, as we get older, we have to learn how to take that time and just shut out the world to get the peace of mind that we need for ourselves whether it’s going for a walk, going to the library or even just laying down relaxing.

here are a few simple steps that have worked for me even now:

  1. Pray
  2. Write a to-do list
  3. put my phone on Do not disturb
  4. Cook my favorite meal
  5. Go for a walk
  6. just sit down and breath
  7. watch a good tv show

In the comments below tell me some of the things that you feel would be a great addition to this list as well as whats some things that have worked for you in your everyday life thank you for taking the time to read today and I hope that we all can learn something peace out.

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Speak Louder


Im sorry I couldn’t hear you over my negative thoughts

I couldn’t listen to you over my own negativity that has been running through my mind like a mouse on a wheel

Do you think the things you said cut me deep when the cuts I had are still fresh. the words you speak only confirm what I have been feeling

Deep in my mind I often ran to that little girl who was pleasant but always cried out for help she would act up try to be a clown and try to be down so sometimes she comes out in other ways

you think what you did hurts me when I have been trying to silence the voices in my mind

SPEAK LOUDER let you opinion soar don’t shut down now I need more pile it all on me I can handle it because here’s the thing what you don’t see is me crying about it or pouting

O yes Im shouting now because I want you to ((( SPEAK LOUDER))))) make it known that you want to be free cuz I’m going to tell you that I’ve been there and done that and this isn’t my first trip

you think your words hurt when the actions have always been different and then expect a change from me, no please go be free cuz mentally I have been trapped and waiting to get out

SPEAK LOUDER didn’t you hear me the first time when I said its ok no need to explain I can see the pain when you walk away this time keep the same energy you gave me I am going to be free trust this is not over but it’s ok my thoughts will soon be dimmer and I will see clearer precisely who and what this problem is and then… at the point it will be… who knows… easier to speak

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Move Forward…


Its ok to have high expectations for someone when you are dating and sometimes we set the bar too high because of past traumas and other situations we come across in our lives when it comes down to it. we need to make sure we are living out exactly what we expect from others too often, we treat situations differently meaning we don’t always allow people to treat us the way we deserve in turn having us set ourselves up for disappointment.

when you allow someone to treat you how you think they should and how you think that allows you to have anyone inside of you and takes you off your focus and your goal. when you allow anyone to have access to you and drop their insecurities and their thoughts and feelings on how it should play out for you, then you lose yourself in their dreams and expectations for you instead of what you set out for yourself.

Dont allow everyone to have access to you, don’t rush to date someone who doesn’t see your worth work hard for yourself to gain what you need to before you allow someone to come in and dictate your life. Stay strong demand respect and allow others to catch up to you. Never drop what you are doing to help someone else follow their dreams never put too much of yourself into anyone else that you lose your identity.

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Deeper than Depression


I have to sometimes find ways to channel my depression like truly as a mother your not aloud to be sad or have break downs you have to figure out which way to handle certain things that can cause a trigger in your life like a song, smell, location, or even person. you cant sit in front of your child and cry and so you decide to find a quiet place in the house away from the noise and just cry or either scream or pray but u decided once you get it out your system that there is not turning back that it has been taking care of. but what if it hasnt and just like a band aid covering an wound you decide to pick at the scab until it bleeds and it has to be treated again you decide the first way you handled the issue didnt work so you try another method calling a friend now this friend you calll u dont really know what they got going on in their life but you just know they answer and then you break down all of your emotions and tirggers of what is causing you to sink into depression and you think there that it they have listened gave feedback and i got it out my system so you think you left the conversation satisfied but this feeling just wont go away so now what do you decide to do to ease the pain and the emotions your feeling look at funny videos or shows to take your mind off spend some time with your kids to use as a distraction to get out of your own head and still no progress that feeling you have deepens to the point where its like although you a present physically mentally you are not there its one thought after the next and you think of the methods you used before that didnt work so then you go to the liquor store and get yourself a beverage to just take the edge off and numb the pain your feeling nd thoughts your having but then you notice your almost done that drink and decide to get another and another and one thing leads to the next and now your drunk and your mind is racing and at the same time not thinkng striaght you decide to comfront your demons but in a way where not your creating a bigger problem than before and your fighting yourself mentally because you tried to talk to a friend that didnt work, you tried to have time to yourself and that didnt work so now your drunk and acting out what your feeling to yourself or someone close to you trying to find out why you were sad in the first place what caused you to go so far that you had to keep drinking to subside the emotions how is this even helping you get better and after all of that you still have the problem so do i you really come up with a full blown solution to help with depression you just learn to accept it and pray to God day by day that it will get better you dont blame others for not understanding you or blame yourself for not understanding you do research read the bible and pray and talk to a professional to see how you can manage day to day with mental illness i hope that this help you see that you are not alone that it is a fight and you will get through keep pushing yourself and dont give up

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Mirror Check


Today I looked at myself in the mirror

I was not happy

The person I saw was different

She was not confident

She was insecure

She looked at every flaw on her skin

She looked at herself and began to feel hurt

She looked at herself and lied about who she is

Was she really a nice person

Was she really caring and Kind

I looked at myself in the Mirror

I talked to myself and said

Pick up that frown

Look you can breath!

Your alive

Your have children depending on you

Dont let them see you fold

Look at the Mirror

Smile your beautiful

You are free Look at yourself

You are strong

Pick up your head!

Your child of God

I look at myself and told myself the change has been made!

I looked in the mirror… wasnt that the first step to freeing my mind?

I looked in the mirror and now I am no longer wondering who I am

I chose me and my children!

I chose me! I

I chose me!

I declare Victory!

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Looking For Feedback Comment Below


There is an order or on things are suppose to be. No one follows the order unless you are a strict orgranizer there are things that come up daily to throw you off balance or throw off you “chi” at some point you have to come to a conclusion of what you need to do and just do it.

What are some things daily that you do to keep you busy? does it always go according to plan? How do you manage your time if you are unorganized? what do you feel causes the most distractions?

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Karma Knocked


It so confusing to look to someone you care for with trust and happiness

Lack of love is begining to sink in the love that was once there is slowly slipping away

Being lied to because of the lies that were told to you are hitting me like a brick

I feel Karma just knocking me down so low that I need to snapped out on you

I keep feeling like that this love you have for me is no more that I am now someone

who is to take care of you, I am here to handle your affair like an assistant or secretary, we are not partners or lovers

we are not just two people holding on to a little bit of hope that is slowly slipping

is this what it felt like when i lied to you

is this what it felt like when i didnt answer your call

is this what it felt like to think we werent having problems

I dont know how to feel anymore

I just know it has to go away

it has to be broken

it has to stop

God help me

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God Loves Us


  • Lack of God
  • Causes a Confused Mind
  • It causes a person to have a mental breakdown
  • It causes lack of doing simple things
  • You allow negativity to enter everything your doing
  • It invites in the spirit of Anxiety and Depression
  • It invites the spirit of Anger
  • It makes you sometime sin although you know that it is not the right thing to do
  • God is near, He is listening
  • God loves more than anyone
  • We may not see him, but we can feel him
  • We can see the things God hands are in
  • God loves more than any man