did you really think i would forget the hurt you caused something so familiar like i truly been there before. thinking that this time was the last time, but i said that the last time and that why i know you dont mind playing with my heart. you know i cant be consist with the breakage so you follow through with the breakage. you make sure that i feel what ever you feel with the tit for tat move dont you know this is alll tooo familiar but i fled the scene of that other thing and flew into your arms all for you to do the same. see now i know why u cant tell someone new about someone old. they analyze and collect data and safe it for their records and pull it out later. you thinking you were just venting but you were inventing a new plan and new way for that person to treat you. see they may not show it at first but they have it tuck away in a file oooohhhh and just know when its time it will come out those same familiar scars that you thought you got rid of the bandaids are being removed and new ones are forming but this time its taking longer to heal. this time its taking longer to walk away because they played the long game… you fell for it after a few months letting that guard down tooo soon makes you look like a munch. you made sure you told something new about something old thinking hey u wouldn’t do this would ya mean while you set yourself up for failure. but how could you know, they put on a good show and you were the audience and the victim this is why u gotta choose carefully when you pick em. they already preyed on you while you prayed on them thinking you met your match now think again its ticking time where you thought it was near marriage bells but noo noo dear its just not there. you went into the shit tooo soon to know and let ya guard down and guess what you gotta go. itsm not so simple to walk away because u added more scars to what was already a pain thats why u gotta find you again before moving on or you will never heal and the trauma will keep on going….

you know early on when the relationship that you are trying to build isnt for you, but what you do is try to wait it out and compromise. you even try to change who you are to fit the needs of others. where does that leave you? feeling worthless and confused, feeling like all the time you invested was wasted! and you know what it was, because instead of you setting boundaries from the beginning, you allowed the person to talk to you wrongly the first time and it continued. you allowed the person to make it where it was they see you on their time and when its convient for them but you arent allowed to do the same. you allowed the person to strip you of your normal morals and character to fit there needs because of how good it felt in that moment….. whyyyy do we do these things????? why do we let someone run over us, use us, strip away those things we know we wouldnt normally tolerate???? because when you werent shown the proper amount of love at a young age, anything would do just for that moment and its sad because you deserve the world on a silver platter so what do you do instead. give in, you compromise, you take the blame for anything to keep peace. instead of setting boudaries teaching someone how to treat you!!! stand up

STAND UP!! AND TAKE BACK YOUR POWER!!!

keep it short

move out the way

stay focused

are you determined

self medicate with bible

the world aint worth the loss of your soul

keep pushing

yes keep pushing

dont dumb yourself down for anyone

make em level up to you

stay humble

be wise

knowledge and integrity must be used

morals and standards

pray about it dont complain about it

the sad truth is that sometimes people are truly miserable in their lives and find every reason to take that out on you. for example, I have someone in my life who doesn’t like me for whatever reason. I use to wonder what could I have done to this person for them to feel how they feel. Its no reason at all to be so mean.

After pondering on the situation, I realize I allowed myself to get to comfortable with someone who never liked me to begin with, it was just fake. I also prayed about it and after arguing with the person off and on for no reason at all. i came to the conclusion the person is bitter with their life.

this person has to wake up and deal with themselves and whomever else on a daily basis not me. this person has to look in the mirror and realize the life they are living not me. I no longer need to entertain the pettiness or foolishness from this person. its by Gods grace I am changed and all in all I realize its not always you the people have issues with, sometimes its themselves. they have issues with themselves and take it out on you!

so be careful to not allow yourself to be consumed by any of the foolishness that people try to throw at you, live your life and put your best foot forward, at the end of the day its you against you.