My life is what I have made it! Come on this journey with me and explore some of the thoughts about things that has happened in my past, present, and see whats to come of it all!
.” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!”
—Philippians 4:13
No need to be dull! live you life! Prayer helps with everything! God saves! Repent! God will set you free, no need to fight yourself! laugh! write! read! be blessed! Express yourself!
Why is it that when you want things done a certain way it doesn’t happen like that why is it that when somebody else wants things done a certain way we can go out of our way sometimes to do with someone else wants but don’t give the same energy to ourselves it’s not easy to even do things for others but we will make sure we get it done.
We don’t give ourselves the same time in the same energy that we do others and sometimes it makes us feel good when we go out of our way for other people but we need to begin to make ourselves feel good and go out of our way for ourselves I think that one of the things that help is helped me over the years begin to do things for myself more often than usual it should just stop and take in what’s going on around me
I’m learning that it seems to be easier to go out of our way for others than it is ourselves and in order for me personally to make time for me I decide that I’m going to turn my phone off play my music and justice enjoy peace and quiet if I don’t want to hear any music
I’m realizing that it’s easier said than done but it’s something that has to be consistent and it’s something that has to happen because if it doesn’t happen then I’m left to wonder why I’m going through so much confusion and why I feel overwhelmed and why I feel like I’m not getting anywhere so when it comes to these things and when I feel this way I have to shut the world out because I cannot continue to do for others and pour into others if I can’t pour into myself the same way I think you should give it a try it definitely makes the difference
why is when we think we know it all and too prideful to ask for help.
we think we don’t need help or even want help
somethings its ok to ask for a hand
studies show it does take a village to get things done
a good support system of family and friends etc
I used to not want to ask for help with nothing and realize being in survival mode is no joke
you got to get out of that mind set and take a chance on yourself and make a diffference by seeking the help you need for important things
how can you do better if you don’t change otherwise, you will be stuck in the same cycle and get nowhere.
take a chance on yourself
I thought that I had it all together until I got hit with a stomach bug. it hit me out of no where
I feel like a bomb hit me and knocked me completely down. Listen when your body says rest. No need to try to do more than you can …
Has anyone experienced these viruses before. It’s not like when we were kids…. Amen I mean seriously I was not able to do anything and that’s what hurt the most …
Thank God I’m good now
I begin to find myself through the escaping pen
all I wanted was freedom and didn’t know where to start or where it would end
I decided to escape through the keyboard and digital paper to write a means to my end
and once I started typing, I didn’t know where my lines would end
so I just made sure to express myself the way I truly wanted because if you really knew me, then you wouldn’t want to hear about it
hear about my day to day or even the one that got away,
Now, I’m glad you decided to tune in and see what journey I choose to write about with my digital pen. I like it this way because it has the trail that will stay; even a physical copy is something that will fade away
I want to see how far it will go
I want to see where it will land
I want to see how much I can do
I wasn’t sure where I would land
I didn’t know where to start
I was always set apart from others and writing was my escape plan
Thanks to my sisters, I can start again
and so
and soo
and soooo
I begin again……
whats the first thing you see when you look at me?
Ive always looked at my photos and when its a full body picture I look at my arms
see it all started when I was 16 grandma put me on depo shots and I wasn’t sure what they were at the time but I was told it was good for me
so I told the dr to rotate and give em to me in my arms and then as I got older the bigger they got
I was on Depo for 2 years and I asked Grandma to take me off because it seemed like all I was doing was gaining weight and it stayed in my arms
I’ve gotten teased many years behind them but Now I just embarrass them. Now you may think oh just go to the gym
be that as it may, at this moment I’ve dealt with these arms since I was 16 with my weight up and down and it seems like I haven’t gotten anywhere
so what do you recommend? at this point even if I went to the gym I feel like they wouldn’t go anywhere……
Have you ever felt uncomfortable in a situation that you put yourself into? I know how that feels and its all too familiar for me, I always did what I wanted to do and then when I was uncomfortable I often tried to figure out how I got into the position I was in. I had to realize it was me all along but see the problem I use to have was
I blamed others, I didn’t accept that it was my fault
It was someone else fault that I ended up where I was at
It wasn’t my fault
I use to be bitter
I use to be a cry baby because one the situation was too bad Instead of fighting my way out, I would play the victim and where did that get me…. no where at all
I decided one day when I looked in the mirror it was all my fault and I have to decide how to become stronger and set boundaries
I had to see that if I say no then I can slowly gain control over the situation in a good way
I have to realize I am able to make sure I am going to be better, stronger, and wiser. I thank God that he has help me become a better version than what I use to be.
its never too late to take back your power
get uncomfortable in a good way
get uncomfortable to become a better you
get uncomfortable to supersize your situation in a good way
You got this and through Gods grace he will always make a way !!!!
You can break FREE from mental abuse, sadness, and depression, and become the best version ever no matter who or what tells you otherwise
you are LOVED
you are POWERFUL
you are AWESOME
you are WANTED
YOU ARE SEEN AND YOU CAN BE WHOEVER YOU WANT TO BE UNAPOLOGETICALLY
Open up that book and read, write a story, create a blog, and start that journey to a healthier you!!!!! But you gotta start somewhere!!!!!
I got to keep moving , I gotta keep pushing myself! Lord you are the one who knows everything and see it all and it seems like everytime I turn around and want to be happy about something it seems like there it is again. The drama, the lies the deception.
How can i handle daily activities when it seem like I am dealing with what is a form of the devil himself. The lies, the manipulation, the stories keep piling up. I dont want to say I am living with the devil but I keep trying to wake up from this dream of someone who I cared about so dearly is now turning into what seems like a ignorant form of a man
Lord you brought me this far and I know you have me dealing with these things for a reason. This is my testimony. This is my story of how I overcame it all. How i got through friendships I thought would last…..
I decided to take photos of myself even when I wasnt happy so I can feel better
about myself. Once I look at the photo that I edited, it makes me feel better
embracing my natural flaws filter/unfiltered….. Does taking photos help you or is it
the attention that I acquire from the photo itself that helps me appreciate it? I am not sure anymore lol… these are really my thoughts
Its an alter reality where I question what makes me feel better. I love taking photos
I love how I look with or without the filter
The artistic view with the filter makes the photo come alive even in my natural state
I like to get creative with my photographs
you know what I actually feel good sooo let’s go…..
I got more photos to take and will be posting
let me know below how you feel about taking photographs
What is the biggest challenge you will face in the next six months?
The only reason I say that is because I’m big on greasy food. I won’t allow my children to eat it, but I will. I want to change into a healthier lifestyle and make it part of my daily regimen.
can you truly love me when I’m down
Can you love me when I’m up and happy, being silly and just giddy all around you
can you love me when I’m a mess? My children have made me feel beautiful but I still don’t see it
can you love me and my curves the wrinkles that may form into a false smile but still hide the pain inside
can you love the way I love you when I see you down and even if I’m hurting lift you up?
can you love me the way God describes it in the bible as being patient and kind
can you love me when it seems everyone else has turned their back and I feel alone, I feel like the only true love I’ll ever get would be from someone who can benefit
can you truly love me and know that this is all I have to give is me, my life, my children, and my gifts…..
The only one who truly loves unconditionally is my heavenly father who also chose me…..
Can you LOVE ME….
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