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SOMETHING TO CONSIDER


Why is it that when you want things done a certain way it doesn’t happen like that why is it that when somebody else wants things done a certain way we can go out of our way sometimes to do with someone else wants but don’t give the same energy to ourselves it’s not easy to even do things for others but we will make sure we get it done.

We don’t give ourselves the same time in the same energy that we do others and sometimes it makes us feel good when we go out of our way for other people but we need to begin to make ourselves feel good and go out of our way for ourselves I think that one of the things that help is helped me over the years begin to do things for myself more often than usual it should just stop and take in what’s going on around me

I’m learning that it seems to be easier to go out of our way for others than it is ourselves and in order for me personally to make time for me I decide that I’m going to turn my phone off play my music and justice enjoy peace and quiet if I don’t want to hear any music

I’m realizing that it’s easier said than done but it’s something that has to be consistent and it’s something that has to happen because if it doesn’t happen then I’m left to wonder why I’m going through so much confusion and why I feel overwhelmed and why I feel like I’m not getting anywhere so when it comes to these things and when I feel this way I have to shut the world out because I cannot continue to do for others and pour into others if I can’t pour into myself the same way I think you should give it a try it definitely makes the difference

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Embrace Discomfort: Steps to Personal Growth


Have you ever felt uncomfortable in a situation that you put yourself into? I know how that feels and its all too familiar for me, I always did what I wanted to do and then when I was uncomfortable I often tried to figure out how I got into the position I was in. I had to realize it was me all along but see the problem I use to have was

I blamed others, I didn’t accept that it was my fault

It was someone else fault that I ended up where I was at

It wasn’t my fault

I use to be bitter

I use to be a cry baby because one the situation was too bad Instead of fighting my way out, I would play the victim and where did that get me…. no where at all

I decided one day when I looked in the mirror it was all my fault and I have to decide how to become stronger and set boundaries

I had to see that if I say no then I can slowly gain control over the situation in a good way

I have to realize I am able to make sure I am going to be better, stronger, and wiser. I thank God that he has help me become a better version than what I use to be.

its never too late to take back your power

get uncomfortable in a good way

get uncomfortable to become a better you

get uncomfortable to supersize your situation in a good way

You got this and through Gods grace he will always make a way !!!!

You can break FREE from mental abuse, sadness, and depression, and become the best version ever no matter who or what tells you otherwise

you are LOVED

you are POWERFUL

you are AWESOME

you are WANTED

YOU ARE SEEN AND YOU CAN BE WHOEVER YOU WANT TO BE UNAPOLOGETICALLY

Open up that book and read, write a story, create a blog, and start that journey to a healthier you!!!!! But you gotta start somewhere!!!!!

accepted · addiction · daily · lonely · Uncategorized

Can you truly love me


can you truly love me when I’m down

Can you love me when I’m up and happy, being silly and just giddy all around you

can you love me when I’m a mess? My children have made me feel beautiful but I still don’t see it

can you love me and my curves the wrinkles that may form into a false smile but still hide the pain inside

can you love the way I love you when I see you down and even if I’m hurting lift you up?

can you love me the way God describes it in the bible as being patient and kind

can you love me when it seems everyone else has turned their back and I feel alone, I feel like the only true love I’ll ever get would be from someone who can benefit

can you truly love me and know that this is all I have to give is me, my life, my children, and my gifts…..

The only one who truly loves unconditionally is my heavenly father who also chose me…..

Can you LOVE ME….

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Finding Peace Through Prayer: Seeking a Better Life


This prayer is for the person who knows more than what they think they know:

Father bless him or her with the right job so that she doesn’t have to depend on their children’s father or family to help with any financial burden. Father if it is meant to be let whoever is supposed to be in his or her life be there and remove anyone that is not supposed to be in their life give him or her the patience to deal with everyday life and the strength to deal with whatever confusion or burdens that may come give peace joy hope faith and understanding. Father open his or her eyes to see which way you want them to go lead, guide, and direct them in any situation about their life their children’s lives, and their family lives Father protect him or her while they are driving working at home at school wherever it is that they’re doing daily so that they may know you are with them every step of the way. Dispatch your angels around him or her so that they may feel safe and loved, father whoever it is that doesn’t have their physical family member present please wrap your arms around him or her and let them know that you are with them or that they are never alone. Father, whoever it may be that feels alone, may feel shut out, left back, or even forgotten. Father bring them to the forefront so that they may know that you are with them in everything that happens in their life is for a reason. Father show up and show out in whatever way you can that no matter what is going on in his or her life they may know to call on you to restore everything that has been lost restore all the broken pieces mend those things sin heal their way and let them know that you always see everything you sit high and you look low and nothing is too big or too small for you and Jesus mean I pray for a good job for a good car for a stable bank account for strength in the time of trouble and take care of their home and Jesus name amen

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Finding Strength Through Faith in Christ


Now that you realize you were a mess, Let me deliver you and you out if you want answers go to Jesus don’t go back to your son and God will deliver you you will get free, and stay out don’t go back to the things that don’t bring God glory arise because there is power and glory inside of you I need your voice and your business and ministry you need to grow in Christ. keep practicing your faith in God. he is maturing you and allowing you to walk in him, grow in Christ, and don’t allow yourself to be denied the things he has for you.

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Prayers


April 2nd 2024

God, I want to thank you for me and my children,a new location, thank you God that the area feels like I can be comfortable . Thank you God I can walk around in the new area and it feels good to allow my children to walk around and play. Thank you God for my finances changes for the better and the new things that you are currently doing in my life. Thank you God for being a provider and way maker, thank you for providing all the necessities needed for my home. I asked that moving forward from here that I walk in my gifts and that my children see blessings from God each day that each of them flourish in every area of their lives and I thank you for protection that you place around each and every one of us on a daily basis. I thank you for protection inside the house and outside the house and I feel like I have to start over to build my relationship with you I have to pray harder for myself and children. I know you will always make a way to help me maintain and keep the place I live in such as keeping up with my rent utilities and bills, god I ask that I learn to be better with money management so that me and my children actually enjoy taking trips. God forgive me for purposely sinning fornicating homosexuality and being angry or bitter god I ask that each and every one of my family members to be delivered for protection financial increase breakthrough and ads that you continue to be with each and every one of them every step of the way in the midst of rebuilding everything that they are trying to build and everything that they lost. I asked God that you helped them supernaturally turn things around and make things the way that they need to be so that nobody is lacking in any area of their life in Jesus name I pray amen.

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Speak Louder


Im sorry I couldn’t hear you over my negative thoughts

I couldn’t listen to you over my own negativity that has been running through my mind like a mouse on a wheel

Do you think the things you said cut me deep when the cuts I had are still fresh. the words you speak only confirm what I have been feeling

Deep in my mind I often ran to that little girl who was pleasant but always cried out for help she would act up try to be a clown and try to be down so sometimes she comes out in other ways

you think what you did hurts me when I have been trying to silence the voices in my mind

SPEAK LOUDER let you opinion soar don’t shut down now I need more pile it all on me I can handle it because here’s the thing what you don’t see is me crying about it or pouting

O yes Im shouting now because I want you to ((( SPEAK LOUDER))))) make it known that you want to be free cuz I’m going to tell you that I’ve been there and done that and this isn’t my first trip

you think your words hurt when the actions have always been different and then expect a change from me, no please go be free cuz mentally I have been trapped and waiting to get out

SPEAK LOUDER didn’t you hear me the first time when I said its ok no need to explain I can see the pain when you walk away this time keep the same energy you gave me I am going to be free trust this is not over but it’s ok my thoughts will soon be dimmer and I will see clearer precisely who and what this problem is and then… at the point it will be… who knows… easier to speak

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Move Forward…


Its ok to have high expectations for someone when you are dating and sometimes we set the bar too high because of past traumas and other situations we come across in our lives when it comes down to it. we need to make sure we are living out exactly what we expect from others too often, we treat situations differently meaning we don’t always allow people to treat us the way we deserve in turn having us set ourselves up for disappointment.

when you allow someone to treat you how you think they should and how you think that allows you to have anyone inside of you and takes you off your focus and your goal. when you allow anyone to have access to you and drop their insecurities and their thoughts and feelings on how it should play out for you, then you lose yourself in their dreams and expectations for you instead of what you set out for yourself.

Dont allow everyone to have access to you, don’t rush to date someone who doesn’t see your worth work hard for yourself to gain what you need to before you allow someone to come in and dictate your life. Stay strong demand respect and allow others to catch up to you. Never drop what you are doing to help someone else follow their dreams never put too much of yourself into anyone else that you lose your identity.

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My last Goodbye….


I shed a tear because I have no more tears left to cry

It’s like I’ve become numb to all of the foolishness and the lies

Too much on my mind, my thoughts running wild over the lies

but it’s not all on you, it’s me too! I was not supportive enough

I didn’t make you feel safe and secure, so you ran to something new

You ran to something new or maybe even comforting.

How am I supposed to believe that is all not happening,

As I sit and watch it unfold, I pray to God that you have exactly what you are looking for

Don’t worry, I’ll be fine when its all said it done it was a long journey

lots of pain, lots of joy, lots of laughter but no matter where we stand today

You are still someone who was empathizing with my pain

you look me in my face and told a lie and this one is something I can’t come back from

so as I am packing my bags and walking out ill be sure to leave a note to list the reasons why

I can’t keep masking the pain I feel inside

smiling in your face knowing you just came from a stranger’s place

I can’t speak to you the same, call me crazy but this is a different kind of escape this time around

no need to worry God is going to hold you down and when you come out of that lost place you are in

just remember you still have a friend.

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Karma Knocked


It so confusing to look to someone you care for with trust and happiness

Lack of love is begining to sink in the love that was once there is slowly slipping away

Being lied to because of the lies that were told to you are hitting me like a brick

I feel Karma just knocking me down so low that I need to snapped out on you

I keep feeling like that this love you have for me is no more that I am now someone

who is to take care of you, I am here to handle your affair like an assistant or secretary, we are not partners or lovers

we are not just two people holding on to a little bit of hope that is slowly slipping

is this what it felt like when i lied to you

is this what it felt like when i didnt answer your call

is this what it felt like to think we werent having problems

I dont know how to feel anymore

I just know it has to go away

it has to be broken

it has to stop

God help me